Engineering and mathematics go hand in hand. But amusingly that's not the case with engineering students. And the universities in India seem to be in love with these subjects much of which is total waste of energy. Sometimes some good occurs amidst all the negatives. But here it was not just good but beautiful too. To cut the chase short , it was due to me, being weak in maths, made me realise that I could be in love with someone. Mumbai university has always had a thing for maths 3 subject in our second year of engineering. And people then suddenly realise that the joy and merry ride to engineering is going to take a turn for the worse. Barely escaping the embarrassment of KT in maths 2 ,I thought it'd be better for me to join a class for M3(maths 3). So I did join a private tutor in vicinity of my place. I joined a little bit late and the people in my batch were already too ahead of me , making an ever difficult subject more difficult to get hold of. But I was progressing steadily. That's the most modest way to put it. Little did I know that there was going to be someone who was still late to recognize the troubles with the maths subject. Monsoon was knocking at the doors and winds were going from cold to colder. These things never bothered me because usually I hated monsoon. I was a hyperactive knucklehead person and monsoon is a season for procrastinators. Don't be judgemental I said USUALLY. It was my third week in classes and I entered the class soaked in rain but today sir told me to sit alone for a moment cause I was going to have a company. I almost broke in to a burst of laughter but the just smiled. It was stupid of me to join the class late but I was about to see a dumber version of me. The white door of the class opened and shrill voice filled with humility was asking permission to enter the class and also apologising for being late. ENTER THE FAIRY. I didn't bother to look up cause Laplace was already devouring my neurons like noodles in ramen. She did as instructed and sat next to me. Seemed like it wasn't her preferred position but being in my batch and late to join she had to make do with my assistance for her maths 3 doubts. I looked at her as I skidded inwards towards the wall on the common bench that we were about to share. Eyes browner than me. Height shorter than me. Long haired and face highlighted by a huge smile and no make up. Yup that's her well I'm kinda running out of words to describe her but all I can say for sure that I guessed her to be honest and beautiful. She had glasses which indicated that she probably was a binge reader. She started solving her problems one by one and soon caught up to me the next week. We never talked much except for she asking maths doubt. But we did share some light jokes. All of a sudden the same maths seemed to become more interesting and before I knew it I was already looking forward to attending the classes every weekend. May be the maths was going easy on me. Or may be I was getting good at it. Or may be someone solving alongside me was giving me more confidence. Whatever the reason, I was improving quickly alongside her. The funny thing is that it was already two weeks and I didn't know her name. But it didn't matter as I enjoyed her company. So I decided to ask her next week we met. Suddenly the fast and furious weekend seemed to go slower than what it normally does. Well my nerdy mind was still thinking of possible ways of asking her name without making it awkward, trying all kinds permutations and combinations of so called past proven techniques but Monday somehow never wanted to go soon to make way for Tuesday which my much awaited day of M3 classes.
Finally it was Tuesday and I entered the class, not with usual cursing but with anticipation of something good to happen. Anticipation of a beautiful journey to start. Anticipation of a relationship to bloom. There was something usual which was her coming late as always. So I'd have to wait for her to arrive. Well call it laziness or procastination but patience was always my forte. After sometime when the tutor saw me doing nothing he asked me to start with the problems. He further added that from now on I'll be doing these problems alone and that the girl has left the classes.
My heart sank. I dropped my head in the notes trying to comprehend what had happened. The game of predictions began in my head. I even started to find solutions for various probabilities that might have occurred with her to leave the classes. Still I knew in back off my mind that the fact of the matter was that she was never gonna come back. Somehow my heart felt the other way. I was way more optimistic that what an engineer is. Yeah we're trained that in order to make machines one needs to become the machine. Or probably we think too much but we just cannot look beyond the facts.
It was already time and even the little bit of optimism I had was shattered to smitherines. I began cursing myself as to how idiot can one be not to ask the name in two weeks but then a counter thought crossed that may be it was something so beautiful that even names had lesser priority. Anyways in the end I had lost. Lost in the shadows of my own glory of being an engineer. It all ended before it could've even started.
Finally it was Tuesday and I entered the class, not with usual cursing but with anticipation of something good to happen. Anticipation of a beautiful journey to start. Anticipation of a relationship to bloom. There was something usual which was her coming late as always. So I'd have to wait for her to arrive. Well call it laziness or procastination but patience was always my forte. After sometime when the tutor saw me doing nothing he asked me to start with the problems. He further added that from now on I'll be doing these problems alone and that the girl has left the classes.
My heart sank. I dropped my head in the notes trying to comprehend what had happened. The game of predictions began in my head. I even started to find solutions for various probabilities that might have occurred with her to leave the classes. Still I knew in back off my mind that the fact of the matter was that she was never gonna come back. Somehow my heart felt the other way. I was way more optimistic that what an engineer is. Yeah we're trained that in order to make machines one needs to become the machine. Or probably we think too much but we just cannot look beyond the facts.
It was already time and even the little bit of optimism I had was shattered to smitherines. I began cursing myself as to how idiot can one be not to ask the name in two weeks but then a counter thought crossed that may be it was something so beautiful that even names had lesser priority. Anyways in the end I had lost. Lost in the shadows of my own glory of being an engineer. It all ended before it could've even started.